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by QuantumBalance » 27 Feb 2008 04:00
Hello.
Sam Colclough here. AKA Sam King. Alex says she likes the name Colclough better.
I am alone. I am alone in a sea of people. I guess I am not alone at all then. Yet, I feel alone. The ladies Chelsea and Alexandra are very close to me. Chelsea and I have started a band. Alex and Chelsea are roomates. They both came into a little cafe I worked at a couple months ago and ended up giving me both their numbers. They are my best friends in Seattle right now and I love them dearly. Alex and I had a little thing goin, but we ended it to preserve our friendship. Well, I guess she ended it. Fucking ugh. I love them so much. Chelsea doesn't date men, but she likes me a lot, so I was all... hopeful that maybe I could be with her. But, she is serious, so I would jepordize our friendship to crush on her so hard. Alex, does date men, and she really likes me, but she might be moving away in 4 months, so she just wants a casual relationship. I am looking for a serious relationship, so there is that. Did I mention fucking ugh.
Today was my first day on my own at 13 coins. From 5-9 I had no tables, and then I had 4 2 tops from 9-10. I made 50 bucks in that one hour, but decided to tip out 15 of it, just because. I have decided that If I am going to make 58 dollars an hour (8.07 min wage) then I am goign to tip out the bussers and cooks better than anyone else in the restaurant. I didnt have tables because I was in the banquet section. Tomorrow I am on the pantry counter from 5-10. I should make at least 100 dollars if not more. I hope. We shall see.
After work, I brought a bunch of food over to Alex and Chelsea's and cooked it for them. I pretty much go there every day. It feels like home. These two girls love me for who I am. They really love me. Even if it isnt the romantic love that I so deeply yearn for, it is still true and fullfilling. I have a really great musical connection with Chel who is a budding guitarist singer songwriter with tremendous potential. I have a really great chemistry with Alex which makes it that much harder that we can't date.... scratch that.. that she is going to move away. I really want her to stay in Seattle. Ugh
Chel played me a song today called not a habit by K's choice. If you haven't heard it, well our band will be covering it, better than the original. But, its an amazing song though.
Its not a habit its cool I feel alive
if you dont have it your on the other side
im not an addict, maybe, thats a lie
Well, I work the rest of the week 5-10 which is a niec short shift, but unfortunatly the exact time that there might be footbag sessions or band practice or dance classes, but thats okay because holy crap this restaurant is AMAZING!
1. no sidework
2. its pretty small (160ish capacity)
3. SUPER EXPENSIVE
4. 0.5 miles away from where I live
5. really fun coworkers
6. prety comfortable uniform considering
7. no sidework
8. TIPS plus 8.07 an hour !! OMG
9. that shift is short son!
10. NO SIDEWORK
So, you know. I gotta shave and look really sharp every day. I have to take an hour and a half to get ready, which includes ironing exact creases into all my clothing in just the right place. I'm going to have to spend a lot of the money I make on new clothes to keep looking sharp, but thats okay.
Well. So to sum up. I lived in Los Angeles, It was prety cool. I didn't really know what life was about so I didnt see a lot of it. Then I went to florida which was pretty cool. I grew a lot there. I learned the meaning of love from Ashley, even though I didnt learn it in time to save the love we had. Idaho was a nice exposure to a shitty economy. Now that I am in Seattle I am experiencing the most amazing place that I have ever been in my life. I ride around everywhere on my bike. I run signals and go the wrong way on one way streets. Today I was REALLY CLOSE to getting killed by a car that ran a red light but I just laughed really loud when I almost died and then rode really hard. Yesterday when I shredded I did over 100 ripwalks. I wear clothing that is super colorful. My shoes have yingyangs on them. My shirts are grafittied on by yours truely. I dance EVERYWHERE I GO. I talk to people that I am not aquainted with. I tell jokes and make people laugh. I make music a lot.
But I do not have true romantic timeless love. And I want it so bad. I don't just want to take, I want to give... to share.
I know that to want it so much makes me sorta not get to have it because I have to let go first... so dont fucking bother telling me that... because it doenst change the way I feel.
I want an artist or musician or athlete or all 3 that I can massage, cook for, create for. I want someone who understands me and accepts me, and gets the same in return. I want someone who rides bikes and who isnt afraid to die. I want someone who is crazy like me.
Oh life.
-Sam
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