Hey, I have alot to cover. I should have written this over a week ago.
Last saturday was a day I had been waiting for for months. It was my Engineering Science Formal - as in the big one for the graduating class.
I had put in 25 hours of construction time (45 was mandatory but I got reductions because I have a club - my footbag club!) I had rented a snappy tux, dropped $210 on tickets and even gotten a date.
All this didn't fucking matter because I got food poisoning.
I was laid up in bed puking all saturday and missed my formal as a result of it.
I was going to go into more detail but I really don't care right now, I am in a shitty mood.
I am still being a bad student despite the huge cutdown in weed.
And on that topic I have some explaining to do.
Let me get this out of the way - I SMOKED WEED THIS WEEKEND! (suck my dick)
Let me explain why I am not upset that I smoked.
I have been getting high via vaporization all of november and quite enjoying the experience. I made the rule of no *smoking* weed in the hopes that it would have the ultimate result of my cutting back on the amount I wasted my time being high. This has worked completely.
I do not get high during the day at all anymore - by not being able to smoke weed it has become a major hassle to get high, which is precisely what I was hoping for. Having a bong sitting next to me with a pile of weed ready to go at any time was highly conducive to me being a total stoner because it was so easy to get high. It was too available.
I know myself well enough to know that I cannot moderate and this rule forced me to moderate. (finally)
Now getting to this weekend, Ryan Seath and Dan Wax were visiting me for some shred. At the end of the day I announced that I wanted to *smoke* some weed because it was a special treat. I hadn't smoked any all month and thus a joint was a special occasion - what a thought! A joint hasn't been a treat in years! It has just been a standard part of my day.
Bah, I don't fucking care, I don't need to justify anything.
Oh, and I plan on buying a convection style vaporizer like
www.aromazap.com and using that to get high. I felt so gross after I smoked, I was hacking shit up and it felt just like the bad old days. My body is MUCH happier without smoke in it.
Oh yeah, I just got back into town. I missed two days of classes for a funeral. My great uncle died. It happens, he was old and happy, I am not stressing over that, so no need to console me.
I still have alot more to cover.. I'll do that in another entry.
I'm bummed right now and I don't know why..
P.S. it was really nice getting to see my family the last two days, I had been getting really home sick. You know what? I really really really fucking love my family. We are all hilarious and the time we spend together is almost always laughing. We have the greatest dog and the greatest house and together we are the greatest family! Go Moshers!!
P.P.S. When I was at home my parents told me I had a saved message on the machine. It was from Marita and it was the nicest gesture ever! she had read my blog and saw that I was sad and called to say hello from afar, what a nice girl!
Thank you SO MUCH Marita!